It feels like both a lifetime and barely the first axis of an inhale but the truth is it has only been a month (already been a month) since I moved to New York, where in no order of priority I have:
1. Started school
2. Created the hole of silence wherein my first two weeks reside – which I will one day have to unpick, I know
3. Went into the wine shop only one time and declared loudly (dramatically!) “I have had a long day, and i want something cheap and good.”
4. Replied to the man who tried to sway me in favor of the forty dollar bottle (then you should treat yourself, girl!) definitively, confrontationally, firmly – “I am a broke student and your country is making me hemorrhage money, show me the cheapest bottle that you would still actually drink!”
5. (Please.) Always affixing the concession after, after the act.
6. Went through eight housemates (some of whom overlap) and two houses.
7. Assassinated eleven goldfish but only in my mind’s invention.
8. Took the uber of a famous-ass youtuber and told him i disapproved of his pranks, then realised how old i sounded, had a minor crisis, shut up, all in the backseat of the uber. Stared out at the skyline in silence. Thought to myself: well, that’s that on that.
9. Turned twenty seven!!!!!!
10. Over the legendary momofuku noodles which I must admit do live up to the ~hype~, interviewed Tash which I am happy about, shot his portrait which I am also happy about. Good lighting and good conversation and good noodles! Interview is up on the Columbia Journal.
11. Bought one zillion second hand things to construct the semblance of a living space
12. Made myself responsible for four houseplants, was given another two. We will see.
13. Read eleven books and wrote none.
15. Did I procrastinate?
16. Went 48 hours without talking at one point, which is a minor miracle for me. After that I started talking to myself (not unusual).
17. Felt very attacked when in a lecture, Joshua Cohen when debating the first vs third person said: “If a character talks to themselves all the time, they’d be like, totally crazy!”
18. All of you talk to yourselves too.
19. Tried and failed to get some logistical matters in Singapore settled. Honestly the biggest pain of moving is probably the minor administrative details that slide like grains of dirt under the raw skin of relocation, only to resurface in itches; irritations under scabs, pressing upwards demanding attention, threatening inflammation.
20. Still, I chose this.