currently listening to:Cadence by Anberlin
status:back in hall and its STORMING and I’m still having a bitch of a headache

the problem with writing

you forget after awhile
that youre not the one in control
you’re the instrument

&
like with all instruments
extensive use over a prolonged period of time
wears you down
tarnishes you
pushes you closer to expiry

of course
it doesnt help that there are so many voices
shouting, pushing from inside
wanting a slice of your voice
wanting to be let out

after awhile
you start looking for ways to stop the voices
you don headphones and slide the volume up
drown them out
wear yourself out during the day
insurance
to guarantee you fall into dreamless sleep

but remember:

even sylvia plath stuck her head in an oven
set the voices on fire
and all she was in the end-
collateral damage.

x
‚ô•jem